Joshua David - My sweet little boy

Finally on the 17th of February, my baby was born. It was a moment I had been waiting for. A moment full of both sorrow and joy. The birth of Joshua was much harder than I had ever expected. The emotions of having him alone were overwhelming to me and there were moments that I didn't know if I had the physical or mental strength to make it to the end. But somehow God gave me what I needed. It still wasn't easy but seldom in this life is. However, even through our toughest moments - He gets us through. He gives us the strength and the grace we need to walk each and every road we come to. 

Joshua was a glorious surprise! I expected a bald little 5 pound girl. What God gave me was the most precious little boy with a head full of hair and an amazing 7 lbs. 14 oz. When God creates a surprise He holds nothing back! I feel that God wanted to bless me with the joy of this surprise so he kept Joshua hidden and let me have the surprise of him being a boy. Since the moment he was born, Joshua has been such a delight to me.  A little bundle of joy in my world of sorrow. I praise God everyday for giving me Joshua. He truly is a blessing sent from heaven. 

Thank-you everyone for all your prayers. Joshua is a living example of the power of prayer and the amazing hand of God. Thank-you. 

I put together some pictures of Joshua so you can see them. Go to this website and watch the video. I hope you all enjoy it. 

www.shwup.com/album/joshua_david_walton

He Gives and He Takes Away

The past few days have been long and tiring for me. I find myself fighting loss of hope and despair. At night when all is quiet and I sit alone in my room, I wonder, why God? Why did you take it all away from me? Tonight I sit here alone again and the Lord is opening my eyes to see that walking through the desert is and can be a blessing. I can either choose to see it as a time when God took everything away and cry because I have lost something so precious, or I can choose to look at the things God is giving to me even in the desert. Yes He does take away. He puts us through the fire, He prunes our branches, He allows trials of many kinds to come our way. But He gives so much to us too. Even in the midst of His taking away - He is giving. Everyday He gives me the tools I need to raise my kids, the patience to mother them in a godly way, the strength when I feel I can't go on. Everyday He fills my heart with His peace, and hope. He gives me grace to fight the battle and He is merciful to me in my time of need.

Yes you can say that the most precious thing has been taken from me and I have every right to feel crushed and disillusioned. But if I look for them, the most precious treasures are being given to me right now - even in the midst of the storm. Somedays they are harder to see than others. It seems like the storm clouds get heavier and heavier but the treasures are still there. God is giving me everything I need for right now, if I choose to receive them.