Enough for every purpose

The Lord never ceases to meet me in my times of greatest need. Last night was one of these moments. For the third time in the past week I fell to my knees in a puddle of tears, after I put the kids to bed. I implored God, begging to Him earnestly, to remove this burden from me. The burden of raising these kids alone.

"God", I cried," I can't do this any longer. Please remove this cup from me."

Three times I have cried to God for this and last night he answered me. He led me to 2 Corinthians 12:8-9, which says...

"Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He said to me, 'My Grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness."

This was my answer. His Grace. It is all I need. It is enough and adequate for the purpose. To raise these kids on my own all I need is His grace and the understanding that it is Him working through me. I must allow myself to be weak, so that He can fill me and be all that I need for everything.

I CAN DO MOST GOOD WHEN I AM IN MY WEAKEST MOMENTS

Whatever You Are Doing Inside of Me

2010 is here and with it many emotions. The past year has been a year full of ups and downs, and although I feel like I am on the road to healing, I also feel like there is still so much for God to do inside of me. The words to this song express so much of where my heart is right now on my journey with God. I honestly don't know the title to the song but the words express it all....

"It's time for healing, time to move on, it's time to fix what's been broken too long

time to make right what's been made wrong, it's time to find my way to where I belong.

There's a wave that's crashing over me, and all I can do is surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me, it feels like caos but somehow there's peace.

And it's time to surrender to what I can't see.

And I'm giving in to something happening.

Time for a milestone, time to begin again, reevaluate who I am really am. Am I doing everything to follow your will or just climbing aimlessly over these hills.

So show me what it is you want from me. I give everything. I surrender.

Whatever your doing inside of me. It feels like caos but I believe...

Your up to something bigger than me.

Whatever you're doing inside of me, it feels like caos but now I can see....

This is something bigger than me. Larger than life. Something heavenly.

What a beautiful way to put what my heart is feeling now. I feel a peace that whatever He is doing inside of me is exactly what needs to be done. It is bigger than me. It is something heavenly. For a greater purpose than I may ever know.